23 November 2012 @ 04:29 pm
Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything.

Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like.

Because I feel like howling somewhere, and I figure you guys do too. Have at it! IP logging is off this time - I totally forgot last time, whoops. ^_^;;
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23 November 2011 @ 10:45 am

This is how I feel so far this break. BREAK IT DOWN GRAYSON.

Hiii guys! Okay, I know I update literally once a month nowadays, but it's been an extremely busy semester and I'm hoping the next one will be easier! Speaking of school stuff, I finished my Japanese BA. It is COMPLETELY DONE. I have a degree. I still have to finish my International Studies degree (War, Peace, and Security /cheery), so that's what next semester is going to be about. Obviously it's time to go frolicking in the woods nude and communing with nature because I have fulfilled some basic requirement of a university-going 'adult.'

Now as to what I'm going to do after graduation, mhmm. That's still a work-in-progress.

I do check Tumblr obsessively. In fact, it is the #1 impediment towards me doing work even though I've trained myself against going on LJ every five minutes. Baby steps. If you need to contact me or just want to talk:

* Tumblr. Drop me something in the ask box!
* As always, the Anon meme is open and you can drop an anon line and talk about anything. :) ANYTHING. Anyyything. Even if you want to know who those ~fine specimen of men~ in the gif are. lolol

* made sugar cookies
* nothing
* homework or studying? nope
* paper writing? nope

Have some photos.Collapse )
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26 October 2011 @ 09:16 pm

Watch my funny face! :D
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28 September 2011 @ 08:55 pm

I remember being heavily annoyed by articles that brought up what-if questions in my high school history classes. What was the point, I thought. It was history. It had happened and there was no changing it. But I was missing a crucial point, then: that by looking at different branches and seeing where they did lead and where others might have led, we can avoid making mistakes in similar events in the future. And that's important.

That's not quite how it works with what-if's in a person's life. We only have one, after all. It's not as if we're reborn again in exactly the same way (no matter what beliefs you have) and we do not get do overs. But still, thinking about what-if's is at least good for wasting time.

When we emigrated from Russia, it's not like the United States was the only choice we had. From what my mom's told me, they were considering a wide spectrum: United States, Canada, Australia, Israel. Israel was ruled out because they didn't want me to have to serve in the military (some other aspects, too). Canada is surprisingly difficult to get into, and I think the problem was that it was expensive. Australia, I think, was the same; I forgot what the reasoning was. I'm sure the job market played a part in it for my parents too, although I think they're so brilliant that they would've been able to find something anywhere they went. So they decided on the United States, where we already had some family to help us out, plus the refugee act for Russian Jews.

I could've been Canadian, Australian, Israeli.

It's kind of fun to think about.

Things that make me happy right now:

* Aiba as a Green Lantern. I mean, he's green already. Being all space cop! Kicking ass and taking names! And trying to hide it from Arashi but of course they find out eventually but they're like a weird mix of horrified and impressed because, "Masaki, stop making green boobs in the air with your magic shiny ring!" "No, keep it up, actually." エロ。

* That's about it. :| I am so busy and I want to get busier. I keep applying for jobs but no one is hiring me. downarrow Also the recent changes to Delicious are making me want to claw my face off. Y U KEEP EXCHANGING FUNCTIONALITY FOR 'COOL.'

Hugs to aeslis.
26 September 2011 @ 08:09 pm

Hi, I'm alive. Marginally.

School's going well, for all that I'm overworked and in a permanent stage of rage - or so it feels, anyway. Instead, now it's my family giving me cause to worry.

If it's not one thing it's always another.

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floweranza: this is a good article

Mom: yes. a lot of it is true

floweranza: oh hi hi

Mom: i liked "wait for a raccoon to wander by the outhouse so you can wipe your ass with it" :D

floweranza: hahahah
poor raccoon

Mom: like it's that easy

floweranza: it'll bite your delicates :P
04 September 2011 @ 12:53 pm

Happy late birthday, Jun. All the best. sparkles

Some photos and my schedule and whatever.Collapse )

Book Plug!Collapse )

Current woes: I still can't get hired! I've applied for so many office jobs on campus (I don't have a car, so there's not much choice about this) and so far, nothing. But have you seen my schedule? It's made for working in the morning. Except, now I wake up at 9 and don't have class until noon or 1:30 and I feel like a useless slob. I'm kind of awesome occasionally... please hire me.

Another current woe is the amount of reading I need to do for Tuesdays and Thursdays. All the classes are upper-level and major courses, and there's just so much reading, I am gonna pass away. And yeah, looking for a job on top of that as well. Glutton for punishment! I wanted to do Hapkido here for my last year, but guess what, that also meets on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Does this school not schedule things any other day?! Whine whine whine.

Despite all that, I'm pretty content right now? I like living in an apartment (and that the bus comes right to us), I like paying bills (not in the, you know, paying money way, the whole established existence way), I like enjoying the school spirit that's especially strong at Iowa. Yeah, I'm lonely sometimes because things will never be like NUFS, where I was surrounded by people who shared my interests and we could be weird together without any pressure. But it's pretty nice here too. If anyone wants to visit me in Iowa, my door is open! Except in winter I'm coming home for break and then I'll be by NYC, so that's much more exciting, visit me there. tegoshidesu

Um, that's an update! Wow, wall of text. I'm too busy for writing most of the time, but my love for Arashi isn't going anywhere. It might be getting stronger, actually; being able to watch shows raw does help a lot, especially since there's almost no subbing going on nowadays of their regular shows. Which is such a shame! They're completely on their game nowadays, looking confident and having fun. As always - silly as it sounds - kind of role models for me.

Onwards to more reading. Or I might watch VS. My discipline hasn't gotten that much better, after all.
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Today is the day I'm heading back to Iowa! Two semesters left - of course, hopefully. It's frustrating right now because my credits from my time in Japan haven't been transferred over yet, so I'm not exactly sure of the level of panic I should be exhibiting right now. In any case, just a bit would be what I call a 'healthy amount;' I'm a double major with one major almost finished and the other I'm about up-heave up on its pale belly (flop like a beached fish, International Studies!), I have only two semesters left to pull this off, and there's something suspiciously akin to a thesis (oh wait, it is a thesis) lurking in the unexplored waters. But eh, why sweat it? I'm going back to the school I love and I think I've finally figured out - if only just a little bit more - where my interests lie.

But of course, nothing of this has happened yet. I haven't even stepped on the plane.

Edit: I'm already in Iowa and almost finished with my first week (which will be another post!), but this is how long I've sat on this post. After sitting on writing it since July.

Instead, let's have some storytelling. This is the story of July 19.

The girl and the typhoon.Collapse )
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10 August 2011 @ 01:56 pm
Oh hey look more vampires. This one's pretty good!

Where Jun kidnaps Nino and Nino's okay with that.Collapse )

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